Wednesday, October 29, 2014






RUSSIAN MUSIC








Monday, October 27, 2014





Dear Diary,


My husband William will not be attending my graduation.....

If I hadn't miscarried, my daughter Rhea would have also been around to see her mommy - me -  graduate....

You can find pictures on facebook (at some point after today):

 https://www.facebook.com/kalyani.rajalingham?fref=ts


Kally





A Latin Group with Flawless Raagas.......

GRUPO EXTRA






el amor que yo siento por ti
esto no es amor esto no tiene explicación

te amo tanto tanto tanto
que no se como explicarlo
no hay acciones ni palabras para poder comprobarlo
solo se que yo te amo mas de lo normal
solo se que yo te amo y eso no va a cambiar

the love I feel for you
this is not love this unexplained
choir
I love you both so much both
do not know how to explain
no actions or words to check
I only love you more than usual
I just know that I love you and that will not change

desde que tu llegaste no existe el dolor
contigo yo aprendi a querer
y conoci el amor
tu eres la unica
que me hace perder el control
cuando me abraza lentamente
te amo como a nadie en este mundo
te amo con el amor mas sincero y profundo
me indicas el camino cuando yo pierdo el rumbo
y mi amor por ti aumenta cada segundo
te quiero si tu no estas me muero
quiero que sepas cielo que tu eres lo que mas anhelo
no puedo si tu no estas me muero
quiero que sepas cielo que tu eres mi universo entero

since you arrived no pain
I learned to love you
and met the love
you're the one
that makes me lose control
when he hugs me slowly
I love you more than anyone in this world
I love you with sincere and deep love
you indicate me the way when I lose direction
and my love for you increases every second
I love you if you're not I die
Sky want you to know what you're craving more
I can not if you're not I die
Sky want you to know that you're my whole universe


te amo tanto tanto tanto
que no se como explicarlo
no hay acciones ni palabras para comprobarlo
solo se que yo te amo mas de lo normal
solo se que yo te amo y eso no va a cambiar


I love you both so much both
do not know how to explain
no actions or words to check
I only love you more than usual
I just know that I love you and that will not change

me faltan palabras para expesarte lo que yo siento
pero que quede claro son tuyos mis sentimientos
quiero que sepas que lo que siento es intenso
y estas no son palabras que se lleva el viento
te necesito como el aire que respiro
te necesito como el ave a su nido
y en el nombre de cupido te digo que por ti yo muero que por ti yo vivo
te quiero si tu no estas me muero
quiero que sepas cielo que tu eres lo que mas anhelo
no puedo si tu no estas me muero
quiero que sepas cielo que tu eres mi universo entero

I lack words to what I feel expesarte
but it is clear my feelings are yours
I want you to know that what I feel is intense
and these are not words that the wind blows
I need you like the air I breathe
I need like a bird to its nest
and in the name of cupid I tell you that I die that I live for you
I love you if you're not I die
Sky want you to know what you're craving more
I can not if you're not I die
Sky want you to know that you're my whole universe





A Latin Group with Flawless Raagas....


GRUPO EXTRA




Que Dios te perdone, lo que has hecho, a mi triste vida
Si al fin con tu ausencia, por el mundo va perdida
Que puedo pedirle, si tú fuiste, mi único anhelo
Y no habrá consuelo, por toda una, eternidad
Que hiciste de mi alma, cuando yo, más te adoraba
Con odio y desprecio, me pagaste, lo que te amaba
Amorcito santo, se que nunca, volveré a verte
Por ti sufro tanto, el más grande y cruel dolor

Que hiciste de mi alma, cuando yo, más te adoraba
Con odio y desprecio, me pagaste, lo que te amaba
Amorcito santo, se que nunca, volveré a verte
Por ti sufro tanto, el más grande y cruel dolor

May God forgive you, what have you done, my sad life
If at the end of your absence, the world is lost
That I can ask you, if you were my only desire
And there will be no consolation, all one, forever
What did you do to my soul when I loved you more
With hatred and contempt, he paid me, he loved you
Holy Sweetie, I know ever see you again
For you I suffer thus the largest and cruelest pain

What did you do to my soul when I loved you more
With hatred and contempt, he paid me, he loved you
Holy Sweetie, I know ever see you again
For you I suffer thus the largest and cruelest pain





Saturday, October 25, 2014



Dear Diary,

My husband William said that he can't come to my graduation.......And he promised.......He came around in September, and left........So, I'll have to go to my graduation with my family..........

Kally

Sunday, October 19, 2014




Dear Diary,


You know how I emailed every Lankan on the planet about me, and William, right? Well, I emailed every temple, every newspaper, every grocery store (anyone in montreal who is tamil would have gotten a phone call/fax as well; and those in Toronto were sent faxes), every family (on the planet), every video store, every.....well, you get the picture......oh, I emailed the Ellam people too....the ellam community, the ellam in lanka, etc.....

A random lankan I emailed asked me about my William today........

Well, I emailed the Ellam people, and they said "God bless you both".......

The tamil newspapers wanted to know who the pusanika family was............If they ever come again, I'll send the full info to the newspapers......One of them offered to write a story......

Anyways, the other lankan wanted to know why I wasn't living with William......And the answer is that we got married in a hurry.......and I might move in a bit.....but my career will take me to USA, and my hubby's job is in London.....and I am not willing to give up my career, and I can not ask him to move to Canada.....or USA...........But, I might ask him to move to USA..........

Either way, we got married in a rush, and so at the moment, we still haven't figured things out......

But thank you for the support.......I thought that it was sweet that even the Ellam people in Lanka said "Bless you both".........which was sweet......


Kally



Wednesday, October 8, 2014


A lankan I emailed asked me this question, and I will answer it publicly:

No, my parents did not want to marry me off to a lankan......at first, they did not know that I had a boyfriend, and then I told them......After that, a few lankan families asked....one in particular said that they don't mind if I slept with, or got pregnant with William, and that they can pusanika the whole thing, and marry me off to their son......worthless son.....

That lankan family said that they will pusanika the whole thing.....so my parents said that because of William untouchables were now asking, and they were also saying that we can pusanika the whole thing, and so one and so forth......

After that, another lankan family in Sri Lanka, who wanted to come here, also said we can pusanika the whole thing.......

I didn't want to get married to the lankans, and my parents were getting calls from lankan who were going we can pusanika.......which caused them to be sad......

So, I told every lankan on the planet.......and after that, the lankans stopped calling, and saying we can pusanika.......



Tuesday, October 7, 2014




Dear Diary,


William will be leaving Montreal soon enough........Our best friend was the washroom......I hope that I don't get pregnant again......Anyways, I love his blue eyes, and blondish hair.........love it, love it, love it......


Kally

Saturday, October 4, 2014




Dear Diary,


My Husband, William, and I have the weirdest kind of relationship.......a long distance one.......Well, he's in Montreal right now.......which reminds me, I have to take a few pics of us together......

Anyways, it's a relief.....for a while, I hadn't even told my parents.......and then I had to tell everyone because of the pusanika family that kept asking........

That lankan family knew that I was in a relationship with William, and kept asking....they were like "we can pusanika the whole thing, and say that I didn't not have anything to do with William"..........

so I had to tell everyone.......but at least now everything is in the open, so I can meet William, so out with William, do anything with William in the open...........


Kally



Saturday, September 27, 2014





Dear Diary,


William, my husband, is sooo sweet.........I got a nice gift, one a day......Well, William is filthy rich....very very very rich, so he can afford to give tons of gifts......AND THE ONLY THING I LOOK FOR IN A MAN IS MONEY!!!......At least it's not like the one Miles gave me.......Miles's gift was old-looking..........William's are gorgeous!.......rings, earrings, etc......

Miles was married to a nice chick, and has a daughter........and now, he's in love with, and going out with a cheap cheap cheap dancer.........a stripper, and prostitute.......I mean, the cheap dancer that sleeps with everyone just for a gig...........Raya was upset because her daddy left........and I spoke to Miles's wife who is beautiful by the way...........I mean, blond hair, and blue eyes...........not like the cheap prostitute.......the prostitute stripper is ugly for one thing, and well, is neither blond haired nor blue-eyed..........

Seriously, Miles had to choose a cheap dancer huh?......a freakin cheap prostitute!.......how much for a gig? Filth that spreads its legs for anyone, and anything to make a living!

I'm pro Miles's wife.....and his kid too..........so I hate the prostitute.......It's an imbecile too......as in the only thing it can do is to propagate........a cheap dancing prostitute that can have babies........


Kally

Monday, September 22, 2014



Check out my WILLIAM at:






Dear Diary,



Miles, and I got into an argument again......He seems to think that prostitutes have some worth.........We call them chinamelams.........way back, there were women dancers who'd lift up their skirts for the men.....and well, that was their profession  -- a chinamelam......and well, in my opinion, dignified women are the worthy ones, but according to Miles, chinamelams, or prostitutes as one might call them have worth.........haha........after all prostitutes!......Actresses, and strippers.......

I mean, how many men do they sleep with for a movie?........Filth that would spread its legs for anything........or cheap as one might refer to them........Ah well, I was brought up to believe that a woman must have some worth, not be cheap for instance........But Miles said he'd marry a cheap dancing prostitute chinamelam (like a stripper, and he's leaving his wife)......he has a wife, and a kid......and at 40 (years of age), he's going after a chinamelam........





Kally

Saturday, September 6, 2014




Dear Diary,




My William, and his older brother - Miles - will be coming by to Montreal! Yeah!


I'll get to reacquaint myself with my brother-in-law.........I met William's parents about 13-14 years ago........they were around, and we were dating at that point, so he introduced me to his parents...............


I have to make sure that I don't get pregnant again.........not for a while at least......I love WILLIAM because he's gorgeous......BLUE-EYED, and blond hair runs in his family, so a baby with him would be truly wonderful...............but we'll make sure that I don't get pregnant this time around..........


Last time William came around - Willy is a Caucasian - he wanted me so many times, that I ended up pregnant..........at that point, the lankan crowd didn't know, and neither did my parents..........


Then one night, I got admitted to the hospital - miscarried ........they checked me, and told me that I would be fine..........


After that, a bunch of lankans asked for my hand in marriage.......one of them was the stalker I think.......(some of them even saw me with my William, kissing, etc....and they said that we can pusanika the whole William thing, and marry me....I'm guessing that they can't get a woman....I mean, none of them are men that women would actually pursue or want for that matter....)........my parents obviously didn't want them..........but some of them just called and asked........


So I had to tell every lankan on the planet that I slept with, and was pregnant with a white man's child........I mean, I love my BLUE-EYED WILLIAM..........


Now, every lankan on the planet knows that I'm with a Caucasian man! So now I'm free to spend as much time as want with William, or to get pregnant with him again if I want to.........

Now, I can actually talk to William when my mom's around, I can talk about William to anyone, I can tell them about our daughter Rhea.....







Kally

Thursday, September 4, 2014




GasLight





Summary: 


A criminal trying to label a woman mad so that he can get away with theft, and murder.....


Saturday, August 23, 2014



Dear Diary,


Even though I grew up here with no influence from the third world, it's funny how I've still managed to pick up a few third world notions.........


William, and I do not live together, and so obviously, he thinks that it's fine for me to meet, and get involved with other men.....Obviously, he's not well acquainted with my culture.....because I allow him to get involved with other women.....



Unfortunately, the third world crowd has a few rules:



1--A girl can only get involved with one man....A woman who has been touched by one man or even known as the girlfriend of a man will not be accepted by any other man........


In the third world, men who can't get women use this to their advantage.....If a guy who can't get a girl wants a girl, he/she spreads a rumour that he/she has something to do with the girl.....which then causes all the other families, and men to reject the said girl........"She is not pure" they'd say.....




2--A man can get married as many times as he wants, but a woman can only get married once........


This would mean that a married woman, or a woman known as married cannot EVER get involved with any other guy......This also means that a woman must choose carefully, and wisely.......If William, and I were to part.......I would not ever again have a hubby.......




3--"Dishonour" is brought upon a family where a woman sleeps with a man who is not her husband......In my particular culture, this results in the exclusion of the said girl from the populace......And need I say that the said girl will then never be accepted by any man...........(in most cases)............But in my culture, they do not behead women.......rather, the woman is disowned by her family.........




4--Women who are ill are usually not considered marriage material........


It's like buying a cow, and only one cow to milk for the rest of your life........you wouldn't want to buy a sick cow........because buying a second cow becomes 1 million times harder........




5--Women are slaves.....They clean, they cook, and take care of the men.........


In other words, men are like kings......they sit on their thrones, and the women do the rest......from cooking to cleaning to having babies........And in my particular sub-group (the theevus, not the demlos), they beat the women as well if they speak back..........In other words, if I were to say something against any man older than I, then, I'd get a nice beating..........physical beating that is........

The reason why I chose William was precisely this.......All theevu men expect their wives to be obedient.....and I tend to have opinions.......which means that I'd always speak back (grew up mostly with Caucasians), and that would mean beatings.......physical beatings................



6--After the age of 30, a woman is Not considered for love, marriage, etc....


To translate, 30 in a third world land is like 60 here.......35 like 70......



7--A woman who has had anything to do with a man who is not her husband is also eschewed when it comes to marriage.........



In other words, I have to find a way of telling my William that for me, the book closed with him. 




Kally





Friday, August 22, 2014





Card 2 
By Kalyani Rajalingham










Dear Diary,


William and I were talking the other day, and well, at least we agree on one thing......arranged marriages......we both believe it to be a feral tradition......


I mean, there are people on the planet who get married to people they have never met or even interacted with just because a few half-baked morons decided that they were Lords who'd decide another's fate.......


That is to say that in a third world, most, if not all women are married off to a random guy....in most cases to people they have never met.........None of them question it, for none of them have the courage to speak or stand up........


So, I must ask why the women do not rebel........I guess they're content being slaves to their pathetic masters........cooking and cleaning.......and having babies.......I do not mock them, rather, I feel sorry for them.......


I never ever had to interact with third worlders (except a few here and there), and I was taught to never ever lose my freedom.....but women from the third world don't have anyone to tell them that they can be more than just slaves, or that they have the right to choose......


I, on the other hand, live for freedom......freedom of choice, speech, action, and well, just about everything.....


To not have people choose for me....
To not have people interfere in my life or question my choices/decisions.....
To live as more than just a slave to a man........(I mean, men aren't worthy enough to get a free slave)....
To be more than just a measly human who learns a little, loves a little, and lives a little to then die...........


So, the end remark here is that I disagree with arranged marriages, and so does my wonderful handsome blue-eyed hubby William........Ours was not an arranged marriage...........



Kally


Wednesday, August 6, 2014



Boo
By Kalyani Rajalingham


Monday, August 4, 2014



Read about and comment on my cyberstalker:

https://ca.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20140804174409AAWNZzV


About being pregnant:

https://ca.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20140804174517AAVrZXf

Sunday, July 27, 2014



Card
By Kalyani Rajalingham


Wednesday, July 9, 2014



I'm sick, so I have some free time.....been creating textures.....


Textures I
By Kalyani Rajalingham


Textures II
By Kalyani Rajalingham


Textures III
By Kalyani Rajalingham


Textures IV
By Kalyani Rajalingham


Textures V
By Kalyani Rajalingham


Textures VI
By Kalyani Rajalingham


Textures VII
By Kalyani Rajalingham